Let me out!

Sometimes I feel like I get lost in my own head.

I never did anything like this before. I wasn’t one for over analyzing. But lately it seems like I can’t seem to do anything without overthinking it.

I can’t seem to talk to my husband without creating stories in my head, Naomi Reagan style, as I speak, like “She spoke to her loving husband while in her heart she felt suffocated by the restrictions her unchosen lifestyle had created,” which is not how I feel at all and it’s driving me insane. It’s like I feel like I have to create drama sometimes for no reason. It doesn’t make me happy. It upsets me actually. But I can’t seem to stop it.

In retrospect it’s kind of funny, but it isn’t really. At all. My head feels like it’s going to explode all the time.

Does anyone else know what I’m talking about? This has been going on for a little bit of time now. I can’t seem to stop it. I’m drawing myself into my own head against my wishes and I can’t escape, I have to over think everything. It’s so frustrating! H said he knows what I’m talking about and I just have to relax, but it’s not helping, because the more I think about it the more frustrated I get and the harder it is to relax.

Otherwise every thing’s good. Too good, perhaps? Do I not trust in my own goodness so much that I have to subconsciously ruin it for myself? Maybe I should dust off my copy of “Men are from Mars.” I remember something about this, vaguely – how when you are in a relationship, all comfortable and happy, old wounds you’ve been suppressing come to the surface in this warm, loving enviorment, because you feel like you can deal with it now. Maybe that’s what happening to me? All this psych stuff confuses me. I’ll have to take a look and update y’all.

Anyway, someone let me know if I’m crazy.